Crazy Wisdom

Wisdom to Free Your Heart


The great wisdom dwells in your body, fully away from all thoughts. 

A teacher is never a giver of truth; he/she is a guide, a pointer to the truth that each student must find for him/herself. 

Direct Experience:

"At the time of the Buddha, there were countless religious and spiritual teachers, each advocating a different spiritual path and practice, and each claiming their teachings were the best and the most correct. One day a group of young people came to ask the Buddha, "Of all these teachers, whom should we believe?”

"Don't believe anything, not even what I tell you!" replied the Buddha. "Even if it's an ancient teaching, even if it's taught by a highly revered teacher. You should use your intelligence and critical mind to carefully examine everything you see or hear. And then put the teaching into practice to see if it helps liberate you from your suffering and your difficulties, if it does, you can believe in it." - Thich Nhat Hanh

Do you have the patience to wait till your mind settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself? The master doesn't seek fulfillment. Not seeking, not expecting, she is present, and can welcome all things.

-- Lao Tzu


You Become What You Meditate On

''Samsara, the transmigration of life, takes place in one's own mind. Let one therefore keep the mind pure, for what a man thinks that he becomes. This is a mystery of eternity.''


-  Maitrayaniya Upanishad


Purity and impurity belong to oneself.

No one else can purify another.


The Dhammapada


Illusion of Ultimate Fulfillment  

“Some people think they can find satisfaction in good food, fine clothes, lively music, and sexual pleasure. However, when they have all these things, they are not satisfied. They realize happiness is not simply having their material needs met. Thus, society has set up a system of rewards that go beyond material goods. These include titles, social recognition, status, and political power, all in a package called self-fulfillment. Attracted and goaded on by social pressure, people spend their short lives tiring body and mind to chase after these goals. Perhaps this gives them the feeling that they have achieved something in their lives, but in reality they have sacrificed a lot in life. They can no longer see, hear, act, feel, or think from their hearts. In the end, they’ve spent their lives following other people’s demands and never lived a life of their own. How different is this from the life of a slave or a prisoner?” 


- Liezi, Lieh-tzu  

Denial of the True Self  

“Narcissism describes both a psychological and a cultural condition. On the individual level, it denotes a personality disturbance characterized by an exaggerated investment in one's image at the expense of the self. Narcissists are more concerned with how they appear then what they feel. Indeed, they deny feelings that contradict the image they seek. Acting without feeling, they tend to be seductive and manipulative, striving for power and control. They are egoists, focused on their own interests but lacking the values of the self—namely, self expression, self-possession, dignity, and integrity. Narcissists lack a sense of self derived from body feelings. Without a solid sense of self, they experience life as empty and meaningless. It is a desolate state.

On a cultural level, narcissism can be seen as a loss of human values—in a lack of concern for the environment, for the quality of life, for one's fellow human beings. A society that sacrifices the natural environment for profit and power betrays its insensitivity to human needs. The proliferation of material things becomes the measure of progress in living, and man is pitted against woman, worker against employer, individual against community. When wealth occupies a higher position then wisdom, when notoriety is admired more than dignity, when success is more important than self respect, the culture itself over values “image” and must be regarded as narcissistic.” 

From the book "Narcissism" Denial of the True Self by Alexander Lowen, M.D. 

Life is a stage, and when the curtain falls upon an act, it is finished and forgotten. The emptiness of such a life is beyond imagination.

—Alexander Lowen, M.D.


Whoever wants music instead of noise, joy instead of pleasure, soul instead of gold, creative work instead of business, passion instead of foolery, finds no home in this trivial world of ours.

—Hermann Hesse


The Sound of the Rain Needs No Translation 

Ego by Eckhart Tolle 


 All the misery on the planet arises due to the personalized sense of 'me' or 'us.' That covers up the essence of who you are. When you are unaware of that inner essence, in the end, you always create misery. It's as simple as that. When you don't know who you are, you create a mind-made self (the ego) as a substitute for your beautiful divine being and cling to that fearful and needy self. Protecting and enhancing that false self (the ego) then becomes your primary motivating force.



“In a recent book, Erich Fromm advances the hypothesis that being is reduced by having. He says, “Only to the extent that we decrease the mode of having, that is, nonbeing-i.e., stop finding security and identity by clinging to what we have, by ‘sitting on it,’ by holding onto our ego and our possessions-can the mode of being emerge,” According to Fromm, the two terms, being and having, represent two very different attitudes to life. The having mode is based on possessive relationships. The self is seen as the I that has a wife, a home, a car, a job, even a body. Since the I that has a body is the ego, the having mode is an egocentric position. This mode developed from and depends on private property, power, profit. It’s focus is upon the individual rather than the community. The being mode, on the other hand, is based on loving, giving, and sharing relationships. In this mode the measure of the self is not in terms of what one owns but how much one gives or loves. In the Being mode, the individual finds his identity through his responsibility to the community.

Fromm’s exposition of the differences between these two attitudes to life is insightful. The possessive mode not only reduces being, it restricts freedom. The things we own, own us. We are possessed by our possessions in the sense that we must think about them, worry about them, and take care of them. We are not free to walk away and leave them because for many of us they represent our identity, our security, and even our sanity. We would not hesitate to describe such a person as crazy if he just gave away a fortune just to be free. We think we can’t be free unless one has a fortune, so we spend our lives trying to make a fortune, and we discover too late that we sacrificed our freedom. We do not realize that freedom is worth more than a fortune, for without freedom one cannot be. “

Alexander Lowen, M.D. Fear of Life 

"We have a tendency to think in terms of doing and not in terms of being. We think that when we are not doing anything, we are wasting our time. But that is not true. Our time is first of all for us to be. To be what? To be alive, to be peaceful, to be joyful, to be loving. And that is what the world needs most.”

Thich Nhat Hanh


Given his culture and the character it produces, what is the fate of modern man? If the story of Oedipus can serve as a prophecy, it is a prophecy of achieving the success and power one seeks only to find one’s world coming apart or breaking down. If success is measured by material possessions, as it is in the industrialized cultures, and power by the ability to do and go (machines and energy), most people in the Western world have both success and power. The collapse of their world is the impoverishment of their inner or emotional lives. Having committed themselves to success and power, they have little else to live for. And like Oedipus they have become wanderers on the earth, uprooted beings who can find no peace anywhere. Each individual feels alienated, to some degree, from his fellowman, and each carries within him a deep sense of guilt that he does not understand. This is the existential condition of modern man.

Alexander Lowen, M.D. Fear of Life

Addiction Affliction

“At the core of every addiction is an emptiness based in abject fear. The addict dreads and abhors the present moment; she bends feverishly only toward the next time, the moment when her brain, infused with her drug of choice, will briefly experience itself as liberated from the burden of the past and the fear of the future—the two elements that make the present intolerable. Many of us resemble the drug addict in our ineffectual efforts to fill in the spiritual black hole, the void at the center, where we have lost touch with our souls, our spirit—with those sources of meaning and value that are not contingent or fleeting. Our consumerist, acquisition-, action-, and image-mad culture only serves to deepen the hole, leaving us emptier than before. The constant, intrusive, and meaningless mind-whirl that characterizes the way so many of us experience our silent moments is, itself, a form of addiction—and it serves the same purpose. “One of the main tasks of the mind is to fight or remove the emotional pain, which is one of the reasons for its incessant activity, but all it can ever achieve is to cover it up temporarily. In fact, the harder the mind struggles to get rid of the pain, the greater the pain.”14 So writes Eckhart Tolle. Even our 24/7 self-exposure to noise, e-mails, cell phones, TV, Internet chats, media outlets, music downloads, video games, and nonstop internal and external chatter cannot succeed in drowning out the fearful voices within.”

― Gabor Maté, In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction



 In western culture, self hatred is epidemic, infecting everyone to some degree. Especially those who manage to conceal it under a veneer of success and looking good.

Few people in our culture have the courage to be themselves. Most people adopt roles, play games, wear masks, or put up facades. They do not believe that their genuine self is acceptable.

The masks, facades, and roles become structured in the body because the child believes that this pose will gain the parent’s approval and love. Our bodies are molded by the social forces in the family that shape our character and determine our fate... which is that we must try to please to gain approval and love.

So much energy is required to maintain a role or facade that little is left for pleasure or creativity. Imagine an actor playing a role constantly, both offstage and on, and you will get some idea of the energy it takes to do that. Being is effortless because it’s spontaneous and natural. That is why children can be so creative. However, most people do not sense the effort or energetic drain of the role they play. What they do feel is chronic fatigue, irritability, and frustration. When one plays a role, the end result is always depression. 

Alexander Lowen, M.D. Fear of Life 


End of Seeking 

Mystics and Sages from both east and west have directly experienced the essence of human nature as a natural purity of the heart, from which all life affirming qualities flow: love, caring, courage, humor, wisdom, devotion, strength. As an inherent quality of our nature, this essence of being is fundamental, beyond any notion we have about being good or bad, based on our behaviour or acceptance by others.

You can never understand the tremendous peace that is always there within you that is your natural state. Your trying to create a peaceful state of mind is in fact creating disturbance within you. You can only talk of peace, create a state of mind and say to yourself that you are very peaceful, but that is not peace, that is violence.

There is no use in practicing peace or reason to cultivate silence. Real silence is explosive. It is not the dead state of mind that spiritual seekers think. That doesn't mean anything at all. This is volcanic in its nature. It's bubbling all the time -- the energy, the life -- that is its quality.

~ U.G. Krishnamurti ('The Natural State')


Never does nature say one thing and wisdom another. - Juvenal

Fight, Flight, Freeze or Please 

The adrenaline system functioned in early man on an instinct level, so that when he was attacked by an enemy or his life was being threatened by wild animals, he had this speedy secretion of adrenaline hormone to give him the necessary strength to fight or flee. In modern society, such threats are a remnant of the past. However, man is so attached to the symbols of his status within the society, that any threat to his position can set the adrenaline pumping into his blood stream for weeks and months at a time.


Nature does not hurry,

yet everything is accomplished.

~ Lao Tzu ~


If someone neglected their business to wander about aimlessly, people would say she is crazy. Yet those who completely ignore the inevitability of death and obsessively seek wealth and prestige are called sane! People who pathologically hoard so much cash that they impoverish the entire nation are put on the cover of Fortune magazine and made into role models. It is Greed (not money) hand-in-hand with ignorance which makes life so complicated. It is not easy when almost everybody around you is living a greedy, speedy, complicated life. You need great wisdom and a strong mind not to follow them. Before you know it you are anxiously thinking of what to do to prove that you are not a failure!

Looking For Love in All the Wrong Places 

Trying to win approval or acceptance is always a joyless task. When we no longer try to win love and attention through our work, we become better artists, teachers, students, parents, business people. We are freed to do what we do as creative play rather than as a form of self validation. A flower does not compete with another flower, it just blooms.

The wise man knows that it is better to sit on the banks of a remote mountain stream than to be emperor of the whole world.

~ Chuang Tzu ~


Man, in his anxiety to maintain his non-existing and illusory identity, has been using thought to translate sensory perception. Everything you experience or can experience is thought-based. The self-absorption in thought creates a self-centeredness -- that is all that is there. Thought is an interloper which thrusts itself into the affairs of the senses. It has a profit motive. Thought directs the activity of the senses to get something out of them and uses them to give continuity to itself. When all such notions cease, there is great peace and existential suffering is transcended at its very root.


You do not grow by acquiring something; Nor wither away by losing it. You remain what you always are. ~ Ramana Maharshi


Materially; food, clothing and shelter -- these are the basic needs. Beyond that if you think you need anything more, you begin a journey of self-deception. Socially sanctioned neurosis. To deny yourself the basic needs is not a sign of spirituality. But to require more than food, clothing and shelter can become a neurotic state of mind. We de-sensitize ourselves with money, food, sex, and whatever else so we do not have to feel. Feel what? That we are vulnerable and are going to die. We do not want to feel this reality. It is too scary -- all our lives we are constantly doing things to immunize ourselves from this awareness and this pain.

A zoologist who observed gorillas in their native habitat was amazed by the uniformity of their life and their vast idleness. Hours and hours without doing anything. Was boredom unknown to them? This is indeed a question raised by a human, a busy ape. Far from fleeing monotony, animals crave it, and what they most dread is to see it end. For it ends, only to be replaced by fear, the cause of all activity. Inaction is divine; yet it is against inaction that man has rebelled. Man alone, in nature, is incapable of enduring monotony, man alone wants something to happen at all costs — something, anything.... Thereby he shows himself unworthy of his ancestor: the need for novelty is the characteristic of an alienated gorilla.

E.M. Cioran, The Trouble with Being Born

“I believe that to pursue the American Dream is not only futile but self-destructive because ultimately it destroys everyone and everything involved with it. By definition it must, because it nurtures everything except those things that are important: integrity, ethics, truth, our very heart and soul. Why? The reason is simple: because Life/life is about giving, not getting.”


Requiem for a Dream (Preface, 2000)


Monkey Heart

The insecurity of our persona, the hell of our fears, the pain of our wounds, the confusion of our minds, the insatiability of our appetites, the greed of our egos, our emptiness and longing all are rooted in ignorance of our true nature. We are slaves to our desires. Seeking union outside ourselves we long for another who will love us enough to heal the wounds of our insecurity, shame and self-hatred. We yearn for a relationship that will be a balm to the emptiness of our lives. We distract ourselves from our emptiness and self-hatred, our longing and insecurity, with money, food and sex or whatever -- all in a myriad of endless desires. The mind is tricky. The mind wants change, something different. It craves entertainment, stimulation. Boredom is a great problem. That's what most people are doing -- running after stimulation in one form or another. 

Desire is pure energy. Desire, without straining for fulfillment is the radiant juice of life. The difference between passion and addiction is, we can devote our entire life to a passion. If it’s truly passion not addiction, we’ll do so with freedom and joy, with a full assertion of our truest self and values. Passion energizes and enriches our relationships. It empowers and gives strength to others. Passion creates, addiction consumes. Addiction requires a particular outcome that feeds the ego. Without that outcome, the ego feels empty and deprived. The key to making friends with desire is to center our attention within the energy of desire itself, as a feeling energy in our body, rather than trying to control outcome or extract fulfillment, which is motivated by mind based conceptual points of views, based on the  myriad self-centered, ego driven illusions of ultimate fulfillment. 

Seeking something, desiring for something, is the basic dis-ease of the mind. Not seeking, or non-binding desiring or passion, is the health of our being. The demand to bring about change in ourselves is the root cause of suffering. Whether spiritual or material it does not matter. We want to become something other than what we are. That creates a neurotic situation. We maintain this neurosis in order to function in today's society. Spending our lives Becoming happy, rather than Being happy.


What is this longing in me that no relationship can satisfy. That no tears relieve. That is not changed by many beautiful dreams and adventures?


Awakening is an inherent biological urge. The process of awakening is inherent in the psycho-biological structures of every human being. Your natural state means awakening from ignorance and coming into a whole-body relationship with the world that is not separate from you. The natural state of not "knowing" which is prior to mind-based "points of view." Prior to notions, concepts, or ideas about yourself and others. Prior to "self" -identification with positive or negative "states" of experience. Life's own energy, freed from thought. Freed from the mind-based, separating action of contraction. 

Feel Your Way Into Being 

Our Natural State Is Inherently Peaceful 

Whatever we do in the pursuit of truth, happiness and reality takes us away from our own natural state which is always already there. It's not something we can acquire, attain, or accomplish as a result of our efforts. All that we do makes it impossible for what is already there to express itself. That is why I call this our natural state. We are always in that state. What prevents what is there from expressing itself in its own way is the search. The search is always in the wrong direction.

Would you rather be happy because of something, or because of nothing?

Spiritual seeking will not save us from suffering and confusion. It only allows us to understand that avoidance of pain does not help. The search only succeeds in destroying the sensitivity and intelligence of the nervous system. Wanting what does not exist -- the romantic, religious, spiritual stuff -- the illusion of ultimate fulfillment, only adds momentum to that false continuity, which destroys the body. It is radically disturbing the chemical balance of the body.

The body is not interested in psychological or spiritual matters. Highly praised spiritual experiences are of no value to the organism. In fact, they are painful to the body. Love, compassion, understanding, bliss -- all these ideas which religion and psychology have placed before man are only adding to the strain of the body. All cultures, whether of the Orient or of the Occidental, have created this lopsided situation for mankind and turned man into a neurotic individual.

Life is a Mystery Not Knowing is Our Natural State

We will never know what life is. Nobody can say anything about life. Life is a mystery. We can give definitions but those definitions have no meaning. We can theorize about life but that is a thing which is not of any value to us. It cannot help us to understand anything. When the question burns itself out what is there is energy. We can't say anything about that energy. It is already manifesting itself, expressing itself in a boundless way. It has no limitations, no boundaries. It is not within or without. It is not yours, not mine. It belongs to everybody. We are part of that. We are an expression of that. Just as the flower is an expression of life, we are another expression of life.

The Sound of the Rain Needs No Translation

All spiritual, mystical experiences, are born of thought. They are thought-induced, states, nothing more. All notions and attachments to Love, Happiness, and Bliss, only block the natural energy of existence. We have to accept the absurdity of depending on anything for happiness. Experiential happiness comes and goes. We can't be anything other than what you are at any given moment. To be ourselves is easy. We don't have to do anything to be ourselves. But to become something other than what we are we have to do a lot of things that are unnatural and stressful. 

A Happy person is not interested in Happiness. A well fed man is not in search of food. To be what you Are is fulfilling. The understanding that there is nothing to understand..There is nowhere to go and nothing to do but to be what we Are, is all there is. Be yourself and thereafter, whatever potential there is within you will flower naturally.

Seeking is Mind Made and Mind is a Myth

There is no such "thing" as God. It is the mind that out of fear has created the "idea" of God. Fear is passed on from generation to generation. What is there is fear, not God. If you are lucky enough to be free from fear then there is no need for a "God" idea. There is no ultimate reality, no God, nothing. Fear itself is the problem, not God. Wanting to be free from fear is itself fear. You see, we love fear. The ending of fear is death and we don't want that to happen. I am not talking about the body's natural instincts, they are necessary for survival. The death of fear is the only death.

Love Itself is the Actual Form of God

When you actually do see and perceive for the first time that there is no God to realize, no psyche to purify, no soul to liberate, it will come as a tremendous shock to that thought instrument. You have invested everything in that -- the soul, mind, psyche, whatever you wish to call it -- and suddenly it is exploded as a myth. It is difficult to look at your actual situation. One look does the trick. The very instrument that we are using to free ourselves from the thing called "mind" is the mind. Mind is nothing other than what we are doing to free ourselves from the mind. When it dawns on you by chance or miracle that the instrument we are using to understand everything is not the instrument, and that there is no other instrument and there is nothing to understand, it hits you like a bolt of lightning. What is left is the tremendous living organism with an intelligence of its own. What you are left with is the pulse, the beat and the throb of life.

You Will Never Transcend Mind With Mind

Examine your pattern of seeking and you will notice how it does not work. Notice that if you are not with objects, relations or states that you find pleasurable you begin to feel unHappy, Dis-eased, Dis-oriented, and driven and so you begin to Seek. You try and find some other relation, some other object, some other state, some other possibility. Even God, guru's or mystical experiences, ordinarily considered to be spiritual or religious, become objects of your seeking. 

Desire is part of the mind. Eventually you will seek Freedom. The final desire. Because it is the last desire it becomes very intense. All the energies that were involved in desires for status, power and fame, money, food & sex, or spiritual experiences, become concentrated on this one single desire. The desire for Freedom. When the mind no longer seeks this final object of Attention, it becomes permanently fulfilled. All effort comes to an end. All movement in the direction of getting something comes to an end. All wanting, be it this wanting, or that wanting, becomes totally absent. There is no hunger. As long as you are operating in the field of what is called the 'pair of opposites' -- good and bad, likes and you will always be choosy in every situation. You cannot help doing that. That is the dilemma and you can't do it. So how to change? 


Weak desires can be removed by introspection and meditation, 

but strong, deep-rooted ones must be fulfilled and their fruits, 

sweet or bitter, tasted. ~ Nisargadatta


It does not matter what the object of that search is -- God, a beautiful man or woman, whatsoever -- it is all the same search and that hunger will never be satisfied. I guarantee you that as long as you are searching for happiness you will remain unhappy. The search itself is the cause of the unhappiness. That hunger must burn itself out completely without knowing satisfaction. The thirst you have must burn itself out without being quenched. The search gives way to something else when it dawns on you that this is not the way and it is finished.

Once the body organism has freed itself from the strangle-hold of thought, anything you do to try to bring about peace and harmony there only creates disharmony and violence. It is like using war to create peace in a peaceful world. When the search comes to an end it comes to an end with a big bang, as it were. Then peace is not something that can be practiced or taught.


Life has no meaning. Rejoice! It has no meaning. 

Dance, sing, enjoy! It has no meaning. You need not be serious. It is a cosmic joke! What is there to get? But the achieving mind is always trying to get something, even out of a joke! ~ Osho


What is the purpose of life? Does life have any purpose or meaning? You are either satisfied or not. A hungry man will do anything and everything to satisfy his hunger and eventually he will discover that there is nothing he can do to satisfy it. The hope must go that some miracle will happen and that it will descend upon you from somewhere. 'Hope' is masked fear seeking to assure itself. The illusion of ultimate fulfillment. If there is nothing you can 'do' to satisfy your hunger, something will happen. All those to whom this kind of thing has happened have really worked hard, touched rock bottom, staked everything. It is simple, but it does not come easy. It is not handed over to you on a silver platter. You have to become completely disillusioned. You have to give up all hope.

Surrender and Transcend the Ego with Love

Giving up hope does not mean hopelessness. The more willing you are to embrace what makes you most uncomfortable, the closer you come to this edge -- where you feel most raw -- least in control -- most vulnerable. If you embrace yourself at this edge and rest at this point, everything will begin to shift. The problem comes from the fact that you are interested in experiencing bliss. There is no such thing as an experience here. Imagination, based on willful conceptual illusions of happiness (hope) must come to an end. The absence of imagination, the absence of will, the absence of all efforts, the absence of all movement in any direction, on any level, in any dimension, that is the thing. That is the thing that cannot be experienced at all -- it is not an experience, it is effortless. You can not make or will it to happen. it is unconditional.

You think that there is somebody, some "you" who is thinking your thoughts. Somebody who is feeling your feelings. That is the illusion. That is the crux of the whole problem. The one that is looking at what you call the self -- is the self. It is creating an illusory division of itself into subject and object. As long as you want to understand yourself, or to change yourself into something spiritual, into something holy, beautiful or marvelous, you will continue to seek and suffer. What you are seeking does not exist. You think that there is something more interesting than what you are doing. If that thinking dissolves then everything that you are doing becomes very interesting. 

Reality Is What You Are Here And Now All Else is Fantasy

True Happiness is prior to pleasure and need. Prior to "experience". Happiness cannot have a cause. Only Un-happiness can have a cause. Un-happiness always has a cause and that cause is always an "object". Desiring and fearing are two of the main ways that consciousness maintains its self-contraction as an apparent separate entity. As consciousness sees clearly that the entire spectrum of this projection takes place within itself, it no longer separates it into "me" and "other". It sees all things "clearly" in and as itself. The mind does not find understanding, it dies in it. The thought that seeks Reality comes to its own limit and plunges into Reality. It dies in that which it was seeking and its dissolution is the revelation of that ever present Reality. The end of the desire is the end of the agitation. The agitation called "seeking" which veils our inherent happiness. 

Thoughts are just thoughts; they are neither good or bad. Words, ideas and knowledge, on this website, or from books, teachers or teachings are not an answer. They may be pointers. They may raise questions. But there are certainly no answers.

When listening to intellectually consoling "talking school" gurus, or when reading their books, there is the ever-present danger of over-estimating true realization. Western students in particular, who tend to be impatient, easily fall prey to this form of self-delusion. They become convinced that they have attained realization when in truth their attainment is entirely mental. If books and gurus could truly change people, this world would quickly become a paradise. 


"Words are, of course, 

the most powerful drug used by mankind." 

~ Rudyard Kipling ~


In reality, the whole of your body is reflecting everything exactly as it is, "out there". A state of wonder. Not separate. No "point of view". No "other". You have to go through whatever consideration it takes to find freedom from the shackles of consolation and conformity to any idea, practice, book, belief, experience; guru "I"-Doll, ultimate eternal honeymoon relationship, or whatever. 

Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy. There is nothing you can do to become happy. You can only BE happy. Our natural living organism is inherently happy. There is nothing to do, change, or transform and there is no next life, this life is all there is. This life is enough. Objective identification with happiness through person, place, thing or “experience”, only leads to suffering. You are what you Are, at this very moment. By entering into profound communication with Reality of our life as it is, we are Free to BE what we always Already Are -- Happy! 

When the Body-mind no longer tries to connect the sense organs with their respective "objects" of Attention, it becomes permanently fulfilled. 

The only answer to this human problem, if there is any answer, is not to be found through new ideas, books, new concepts or new ideologies, but through bringing about a shift in the fear oriented, stress chemistry patterning of the human body. By learning to feel our way into being, beyond fixed, conceptual points of view. Biodynamic Structural Integration bodywork is a direct means of releasing stress related patterning -- at the root. When our body is peaceful it is easy to appreciate and feel our embodied Self Nature. 

So the secret is just to say 'Yes!' and jump off from here. Then there is no problem. It means to be yourself, always yourself, without sticking to an old self.

-Shunryu Suzuki Roshi

The great wisdom dwells in the body, away from all thought. It is only by grounding our awareness in the living sensation of our bodies that our true presence can awaken. Embodied alignment is the perfect balance between the descending gross physical and ascending subtle spiritual forces of manifest existence. An inner “line”, expressed within the constant relational field of earth's gravity and the unknown infinite space of sky. 

In the future, medical doctors and psychiatrists will explain the effects of happiness on health. In happiness you do not have high blood pressure. In happiness, people do not have heart attacks and strokes. Only unhappy people have these conditions. Only those who made others unhappy are stricken. We become happy because our whole body and aura becomes harmonious and beautiful. We understand each other better in happiness than in anger and revenge.

If two people are really happy, they will understand each other. Unhappy people are those who make others unhappy. Usually, these unhappy people are fearful, angry, revengeful, jealous, and they use malice, slander, and treason. If you examine the bottom line, you will see that they are very unhappy people, and they are now taking revenge on themselves. They are making themselves unhappy.

-Torkom Saraydarian, Happiness, Joy & Bliss 

"Just practice good, do good for others, without thinking of making yourself known so that you may gain reward. Really bring benefit to others, gaining nothing for yourself. This is the primary requisite for breaking free of attachments to the Self."

 ~ Dogen Zenji,  "A Primer of Soto Zen: A Translation of Dogen's Shobogenzo Zuimonki"

“If your everyday practice is to open your emotions to all the people you meet, to all situations you encounter without closing down, trusting that you can do that - then that will take you as far as you can go. And then you’ll understand all the teachings that anyone has ever taught.”

~Pema Chödrön

Touch: by Bubba Free John

"Touch is precisely the dimension in which you must become awake. You must transcend the intellectualizable senses of sight and hearing and so forth. Samadhi is simply a matter of passing through all the internal lights and sounds and visions associated with the intellectual senses into the domain of the sense of touch where all the intellectual senses are suspended. At the level of touch we read the very condition of the nervous system in space. But, as touch, that condition is blind, it is prior to the usual body sense, prior to all the intellectually organized complexity of inwardness. Inwardness vanishes, and what is seen is at the skin level. Our contraction from infinity can possibly even be measured in terms of electrical activity at the skin level. It is only when the sense of touch becomes Enlightened that the subtle activity at the level of the skin achieves the Native State and permits bodily intercourse with the Infinite Radiance. 

The ultimate dimension or mode of the nervous system is cognized at the level of touch, not via the intellectual senses-which include all the senses except touch. You propose, in your egoic fashion, to go about exploiting the intellectual senses, the receptor senses, which can be associated with higher person contemplation, in separation from the physical. Yet, separation from the physical is basically separation from the sense of touch. You tend to exploit these other senses because the surface of your being is not entirely released though touch into infinite Radiance. Your neurosis is reflected at the level of touch, in your avoidance of relationship, your contraction of the sense of touch. You recoil, you turn upon yourself toward the inward part. Therefore, you principally violate the organization of the being relative to the sense of touch, or simple, whole-bodily surrender.

You are least conscious of the dimension of touch. You think information comes first through these intellectual senses such as vision-and all the games you play with these senses which are associated with higher imagination. But long before you see, the very surface of the eyeballs is contracted by fear. The very surface of the brain is contracted. The extremity as well as the root of the nervous system is contracted. The very presentation of the whole/bodily being is fundamentally contracted. Thus, the media of the body/mind all provide information qualified by a fundamental error of the whole bodily being at the level of its most basic presentation.

The Way is founded on touch. Only when the whole body, or the total surface of the body is Enlightened, rather that when some isolated part is stimulated, can you fully involve yourself in the sense of touch. The whole body is associated with touch. All the other organs of sensation are creepy little internal senses and yogis always exploit these sensors. They do not take up the Way of touch, which is founded in the whole-body sense of touch.

Thus, the liberation, the Enlightenment, of the sense of touch and not its inversion-is the vehicle of the Way. Touch transcends all the other dimensions of sensation and awareness. Touch transcends sight and sound and all the mystical experiences that can be realized through the inversion of any of the other senses. You can experience all kinds of visions of the Great Being by inverting the sense of sight, but an entirely other dimension is revealed when the dimension of touch is liberated, freed from the subtle effort of contraction that separates the body at the skin level. The whole-body being resumes its fundamental presentation of itself prior to inwardness and recoil from the universal design and from its own Being and Radiance, its Condition in Truth."


Written in Laughing Man Magazine by Bubba Free John (8/14/79) 

Wound of Love

“Sooner or later, if we are on any classic “spiritual schedule,” some event, person, death, idea, or relationship will enter our lives that we simply cannot deal with using our present skill set, our acquired knowledge, or our strong willpower. It will probably have to do with one of what I call the Big Six: love, death, suffering, sexuality, infinity, and God.  Spiritually speaking, we will be led to the edge of our own private resources. At that point we will stumble over a necessary stumbling stone...We will and must “lose” at something. This is the only way that Life–Fate–God–Grace–Mystery can get us to change, let go of our egocentric preoccupations, and go on the further and larger journey.

There is no practical or compelling reason to leave one’s present comfort zone in life. If it’s working for us, why would we? Nor can we force ourselves into the second stage of disorder (though we must certainly be open to it). Any conscious attempt to engineer or plan our own enlightenment is doomed to failure because it will be ego driven. We will try to “succeed” in the midst of our failure and “order” our time in disorder! But unexpected weaknesses, failure, and humiliation force us to go where we never would otherwise. We must stumble and be brought to our knees by reality. “God comes to you disguised as your life,” as my friend Paula D’Arcy wisely says. We must actually be out of the driver’s seat for a while, or we will never learn how to give up control to the Real Guide. It is the necessary pattern.”


-Richard Rohr


The bad news is you're falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is there's no ground." 

~Trungpa Rinpoche


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